Perfectest, a totally new word that I thought of this AM. I was inspired by one of my nurses here. I am so lucky to have so many good friends here.
In Camino terms perfectest would mean what? It would mean that one is moving forward, experiencing things so to speak. Or if not moving forward at least healing up or regrouping so one could get going soon, just a temporary state. Perfect is another word for whatever comes up on the trail next. Deal with it gracefully and that’s it, we have bigger fish to fry down the road.
In terms of perfectest in the ordinary world, it would mean something else. The ordinary world is the world governed by ordinary thinking. It is full of right and wrong and them and us and super full of expectations. We feel like all sorts of things are due us. We expect things to happen in a certain way, in a certain perfect way.
Ironically (I know that’s not a real word either but it’s fun also), today I got the news from my scan that happened yesterday. In layman’s terms it didn’t look great. My little guys were rowdy and have grown more than the usual pace. Yea, and the result of that is my oncologist, code named Nugget, put me on a stronger chemo that I am not looking forward to. We have always known that I would probably need to do this and all of a sudden the time is now. Yea, stronger chemo means stronger side effects and that is the worry.
So, do you see the ironical? This is far from the perfectest news or this is not what I expected today. But in terms of Caminothink (oh, is THAT a new word) I am supposed to deal with it gracefully and move on, right? And that is what I am going to do to the best of my ability. I’ve got bigger fish to fry down the road might be the key to the whole deal.
I am sure glad that you guys let me make up stuff as I go along. I am blessed. And you know that no matter what happens with my rowdy friends in my lungs the blog will go on. This is a description of the trail this blog is. So if the trail gets rougher it doesn’t mean that the blog will end. There are more new words that need making so I’ll be here.
OK, time to order some lunch here at the treatment center. Caminothinking about you, love, Felipe.