While We Are Here

First itty bitty ear of early corn. Not a great year this 2020. But our daughter-in-law thought we should celebrate. Of course.
(photo Henna Volker)

It is certainly a time of uncertainty for us all in these days. The future seems to slip slide around more than ever. We are less likely to make plans, one of our best usual activities for one and it has change our lives in a myriad of ways.

Fortunately or unfortunately I have been living in this twilight zone for nine years now since my cancer diagnosis. Somehow this zone of uncertainty seems normal and doable to me now after all this training. Maybe I am some kind of expert in this area!

Have a scan tomorrow at the Institute. Gone all day because I will hang in there for the blood work, scan, doc appointment and research meeting. That is a lot but I have done it before. Anyway this is probably the hardest hurtle for us, this anxious time of wondering what the scan will bring. But fortunately even these have become less painful for me after so many. I could say they have become routine but it’s not quite that good.

So, having the faith that leads me to understand that God is present and active in my life is my biggest asset. My journey is very much like jumping across a river going from rock to rock. The way isn’t always clear but one jump at a time and progress is made. Faith in God’s grace and my ability and my team’s ability is vital.

One of the things that I have on my agenda is to talk with a person who is experiencing relapses of covid. She requested that she would like to talk with folks that are living with long term problems to get some inspiration and knowhow. OK, I think that I am ready now to talk with her after I have practiced on you all. Thanks.

Off we go.

long term loves, Felipé.