Lots Of Dawns

Just because.
(photo P Volker)

We all were taking those pics of our shadows all stretched out on the road ahead with the sun rising behind us in the east. Those dawns when we were up early and grumpy and stiff. The Ibuprofen was just starting to find some body parts to help, there were so many screaming. The air was fresh, the birds chirped.

Thinking of Cris right now. What would she write if she were doing this? Of course she would write of possibilities. That the new dawn equates with new possibilities. It’s usually takes a cafe con leche or two to appreciate that notion for me anyway. But it was true. We had a new view, a new ever changing panorama to enjoy. New pilgrims would seem to pop up just when we needed them to help us laugh or cry. It was all sort of wide open.

What about that phrase that we us all the time, “It dawned on me.” How does that work? We recognize or realize. We all of a sudden get something, like an understanding of a concept or answer to a problem. Maybe that kind of thing was happening also. That we would be connecting the dots in some of the uncharted areas of our lives. We were figuring things as we moved along.

Well, you know what today is here in the States, it’s Super Bowl Sunday. The most important football game of the year, the mother lode of sports is happening. Even Amanda Gorman will be in on it with her exquisite poetry.

OK, time to go walk with Catherine. Not a bad morning, a little chilly.

exquisite poetry loves, Felipé.

Dawns

My poor Camino map that I carried and then Catherine carried across.
(photo P Volker)

Number 3: When you contemplate the Camino and discover it is full of names and dawns.

Sometimes these ten truths seem so transparent and sometimes they are so mysterious. This one uses the word “contemplate” and it lays a certain mysterious tone over it from the get go. Just in general when do we here in the twenty first century contemplate anything. We are way too busy and our time too valuable to do that kind of old fashioned stuff. But this is the Camino we are taking about and we have already “slowed down” physically at least for a time and we have seen the benefits of “slowing down” in our philosophy, in our being.

We can do this. We can contemplate the Camino. The names seem to be to me anyway mostly the names of towns and cities. And maybe places that for one reason or another stick out like Cruz de Ferro. Some of those names on the map are towns or were towns at some point. A certain amount were semi piles of stones with an elderly lady selling some berries she had picked or produce she had grown.

Then the dawns. Ah, so many of those. They were like the curtain opening on a play. Each day a new play. Each day a new try, a new facet to see, new questions to ask and answer. Just one job to concentrate on, this one play, not yesterday’s and not tomorrow’s.

today’s loves, Felipé.

The Flow Of Pilgrims

Oh boy, arriving to tapas!
(photo P Volker)

I so love these Pilgrim Beatitudes. So glad that they were handed to me. It was just a half sheet of paper with them printed on both sides. I Googled PB yesterday and found a few folks that found them also and brought them back. I will have to follow up on that.

We were talking about arriving together yesterday from the second Beatitude. There is that power of togetherness that develops there and one would have to be an absolute grinch to not get involved with it. There have to be folks that are more or less distracted because they are grieving or angry or something similar that would be less susceptible but maybe not. Maybe it could be a place of big breakthroughs.

Hundreds of Camino people have walked here with us at Phil’s Camino over the seven years that we have been open and I will say with certainty that the glue is still sticky. That’s the glue that we were speaking of yesterday. Once you have been inoculated it is with you. I feel this bond with all sorts of folks that I didn’t physically walk with but that doesn’t seem to matter!

We have been trained by St James and that’s it, no muss no fuss, got the t-shirt. We can’t help ourselves as Annie says. The only way that we know how to arrive anymore is together.

working on my taxes loves, Felipé.

To Arrive

(photo K Burke)

“Blessed are you pilgrim if what concerns you most is not to arrive, as to arrive with others.”

There is a kind of glue that binds pilgrims together even if you have only met a person twenty minutes before. And you walking together. It isn’t anything serious or is it? It seems totally natural and random. But was that person put there to meet me at that give time and place? Was this all sort of choreographed? You may loose track of that person in the few following hours and then you meet again and it is the best thing ever.

And you are continuing arriving, to that first cup of coffee, to the top of the rise, to a stunning view, to lunch, to working on each other’s feet, to the shade, to the albergue. And it’s fun because you have this companionship. And there are two of you, or four or six. And you want to keep up with the pace. You dread getting hurt and having to stay behind, the glue wants to hold.

This glue starts to seem like the best substance ever. You wonder about it. Or maybe you don’t think about it at all because it all seems so natural. It just is. And then one day shortly afterward you find yourself on a plane surrounded by people who think more of their devices than each other. And you feel neglected and mad.

Where is that glue? What happened? How do I reconnect? Was I mistaken? Was it all a dream? Nobody seems to understand here.

more tomorrow loves, Felipé.

The Unseen

Looking Around the Corner. Tapestry by William Morris.
(captured on FaceBook)

Last night my pillow started talking to me and it totally freaked me out. I had to peel myself off the ceiling. This is about the unseen. The pedestrian explanation or as close to an explanation that I can come up with is that somehow I got my pillow and head over on top of the bedside table and accidentally pushed some button on my newfangled radio clock alarm. It’s either that or the Pillow Guy is sending me a weird new narrative hoping to sway The Caminoheads story. Anyway, I couldn’t sleep after that and I stumbled out to sit with My Rebecca who was watching a late show and guess who was a guest, Father James Martin! Maybe I was just supposed to be there.

When I forest encountered this Beatitude I interpreted it to mean that if we slow down to a walking pace we will see oh so much. And that is true, yes? We miss so much in our hustle and bustle. We miss so much with our fast cars and jet planes. To walk day after day put us in a new space that had a lot going on in it. It wasn’t boring or drab or unpopulated or empty. It gave us a window a way of seeing.

I’m at the Institute today. Seeing all my people here. Now I Am just finishing up and the day is still young.

slow down loves, Felipé.

Opens Your Eyes

My favorite shot from our Camino.
(photo K Burke)

“Blessed are you pilgrim if you discover that, the Camino opens your eyes to what is not seen.“ Here we are on the second of February and off and running on talking about the first of the Pilgrim Beatitudes.
Robbi one of our local Caminoheads brought this quote by Marcel Proust: “My destination is no longer a place, rather a new way of seeing.” How about that?

That is what comes to mind to me for starters. We think we are walking to Santiago and we did but we also achieved something else or discovered something else. We were off to do the Camino and the Camino did us, I’ve heard it expressed.

I for now find myself out of time today and must leave for my day which is proceeding more rapidly than expected. Forgive me. But we don’t need to be in a rush with this topic.

only 24 hours in a day loves, Felipé.

Popcorn For Dinner

My favorite shot from our Camino.
(photo K Burke)

Do you think it shows a lack of moral fiber? Well, it was no lack of fiber anyway this popcorn for dinner. It just seemed odd really, a departure. I don’t think that it would have occurred to us if we weren’t lounging around with the Covid gnawing on the windows. But underneath it all I do cherish the dinner table and the act of everyone sitting down at it to spend some time together. But we are out of shape with real live dinning and entertainment.

It’s February first, St Bridget’s Day. She is the feminine counterpart of St Patrick of Ireland’s misty past. And it is half way to Spring! That sounds like a definite good thing to me. I just noticed some new flower shoots coming up.

So, I thought that it is time to review again the Pilgrim Beatitudes that I brought back from Spain in 2014. This might be the high point of my life’s work reviving and popularizing these ten curious and beautiful truths. So, maybe if we are lucky we can explore these for the whole month. They deserve it. We deserve it. We deserve it as we slowly rejoin each other this new year as the Covid wans.

Think about the first one: “If you discover that the Camino opens your eyes to what is not seen.” All the Beatitudes start with “Blessed are you pilgrim…” So it is “Blessed are you pilgrim if you discover that the Camino opens your eyes to what is not seen.“ Think of the different levels of that.

OK, walk time, maybe swim time, wet out. The birds will be hungry though.

popcorny loves, Felipé.

The Meseta Kinda

Kelly and me somewhere along the way. One of my favorite shots.
(photo unknown)

Here we are coming up on a year of hiding out. I can remember seeing the news report of the first 500 people killed by the Covid and thinking that we’ll get a handle on this soon. That didn’t happen in the easy way I envisioned. It has been messy and hard and it is still messy and hard and it has been long.

Yes, messy, hard and long like the Meseta. Yes, hard and long and yes messy. By that time on the Camino I had lost all my underwear as well as one leg of my zip together pants. And I was losing so much weight that said pants kept slipping down continuously. I was sunburned and windblown and every other compound word. Oh and plus limping. That’s how we showed up at Sarria to greet all the new shiny people. Yea, we were messy.

But we survived and the flesh wounds healed up. Now we are messy in other ways. I really don’t know what that means but I feel it is true. We have been through a lot and there is more to come but we all sense the light at the end of the tunnel. I just want to sit in a lawn chair in the August sun with you and just take it in. Nothing needs to be said.

Catherine coming, birds need to be fed and rosaries said.

morning loves, Felipé.

Wolf Moon

June 2020 version of Felipé.
(photo H Volker)

I was out before dawn this morning and finally caught a glimpse of the wolf moon through a break in the clouds. Gave it a howl which is what I’ve been waiting to do but just haven’t had a chance. Thanks Henriette for keeping me up on this stuff. Nothing like a good howl!

Brings back memories of the Meseta. Sometimes out there in the Middle of Nowhere with the wind blowing so hard one couldn’t think straight I would enjoy some great howls. Maybe a couple, three times a day. We were all wild eyed and wind blown out there.

A while back, sometime after the self isolating became a craze, we signed up for some help from the local food bank. They deliver a shopping bag of groceries every Thursday afternoon. To show you what a great place Vashon is to ride out a pandemic they had rack of lamb in this week’s bag. Yea, this is tough! We hadn’t had lamb in years and enjoyed the heck of it. Those wolves know what they were doing to target lamb, racks and all.

le lobo loves, Felipé.