We know that. But do we really believe that? Do we really trust in that? Questions, questions, not a very good sort of introduction. Sorry.

The post yesterday was truthful but limp. Somehow, I am looking to make up for that without “jumping the shark”. I did finally emerge from my heavy fatigue to maybe a medium variety. Puttered around the kitchen and put some ingredients together. I haven’t been spending so much time cooking as I did last year and am somewhat rusty. But did get jello made, OK that’s not very difficult. Also had the stuff to make oxtail soup and potato salad and got that done. All three of those can survive nicely in the frig and be handy to have.

Am going to start thinking today about packing for the Austin trip. We are flying out on Friday. Catherine y Dana chauffeuring us, thank you. This is going to be pretty darn amazing and of course I will be blogging from there to give you a rough facsimile of what’s going on.

Speaking of rough facsimiles, my prayer of “God Is Good!” is a rough facsimile of the cosmic situation at least in the world according to Felipe. Yes, and where, do I go from here? Well, cosmically probably not much need really. But here at the ranch we have a walk in a few hours and it has just been pouring but it may clear. Then I have some shirts to iron and get ready for the big trip.

Before I leave I will have to credit a nun on the Camino for giving me the “Pilgrim Beatitudes” which had the phrase “the silence of prayer” which I worked on for a long time before I got it. The gist of it is that God is so close that we can leave the realm of words and communicate with our thoughts or perhaps better. So the fewer words the better is the thought.

You are good, love, Felipe.

It’s late Saturday morning on the usual worst day of my chemo cycle. I can hardly keep my eyes open although have slept well. Sometimes I don’t get this Saturday blog post together because of the fatigue. And this may be one of those.

Any maybe I am recovering from being zapped with 220 volts of Camino voltage yesterday. Yea, check that post out for something worth reading. Well, all days are not equal, we know that by now, days vary.

But thanks for returning here to see how how I/we are doing. I need you to be here when you can to share in the story. God loves stories and we will do our best. Love you, Fatiguey Felipe.

I was doing my morning mediation and my mind was continually drifting to thoughts of the Camino. Is there something wrong with that? A big “NO”! I had the realization that thinking of the Camino or better put thinking things Camino will heal me or bring me farther down that healing road. It can’t be helped, it just is. That was my realization this AM as I invited healing into my body, so imbattled at this point.

If we consider God to be a gathering force, that certainly happened there, in Spain and France. People from all over the planet gathered to cheer each other on as we tromped through a gathering of history. The universe gathered starting with the sun beating on us to the “field of stars” ever present over our heads. The earth gathered to give us merciful clouds, to give us views of nature and agriculture to nurture our souls. The whole thing was a gathering!

If we consider God being a mix of truth, beauty and goodness, that could be found with being open to it. Beauty is perhaps the easiest road and a good one. Goodness seeps through in big and the littlest ways. Seeps is a good word for that. Truth is a concept that seems to be in short supply or our thinking has become muddled perhaps in the world as we know it. I think that the solitude that is truly a part of walking across the Meseta is where this truth comes out. Maybe you have slightly different thoughts or memories but I bet they aren’t far off.

There comes a time when this thinking starts to imbed itself in our hearts and we are no longer simply thinking. I feel that coming. We are on a path, a trail, a road, a Camino to living this stuff, this gathering. Caminoheads on their way to becoming Caminohearts! It’s all a healing force!

Simply Your Felipe. Love you.

It’s a bright morning, haven’t looked at the weather forecast. Wiley rolling down the driveway to work. Maybe even tiny patches of blue sky overheard.

I have no idea what I am going to write about today, things could go in a couple of directions. But they are going for sure, and all good, well mostly. Things are swelling up like a spring bud for the Austin Adventure coming up, the premier of Phil’s Freakin Camino. I even hear through the Camino grapevine that President Obama and the First Lady will be in the neighborhood. They know a good thing. So, we will keep you posted with up to date reporting on the AA.

On Sunday afternoon, on my way home from the retreat, I was driving down the road with an intersection coming up. Just before the intersection was a sign pounded in the shoulder of the road informing everyone of an important bit of info or maybe two bits. There was the word “WINE”, and check this out, on the same sign was an arrow pointing left and an arrow pointing right. It was like the classic Camino deal where you can’t possibly go wrong, there will be something of value either way. The perfect crossroad dilemma!

Fortunately I drove on. It was way too early in the day for that. And I had been up two nights participating in various snoring contests to be in my right mind so I went straight but I was intrigued. Road trips are fun especially on Blue Highways (smaller than red highways which are smaller than the Interstates).

OK, I need to get my day off started. Thursday I am in between hospital visits. I’ll up at Our Jennifer’s pushing the bathroom project further down the road mostly. And walking at 0900 beforehand.

Well, good luck with your projects today. OK, let’s review, you guys are all peaches, love, Felipe.

Well, it’s a goal. Traveling down the road that is life we pack some provisions, paying some attention to food groups, quantities, weight. Bringing along a little extra for someone we may meet. Having some sense of the balance between order and disorder, plan and chance.

I brought some chicken salad, a baguette and gummy bears for lunch here at the hospital. It’s my treatment day. Also just had a pow wow with my doc about my scan that happened yesterday. And that was good news! My tumors show no growth. My doc is doing a great job. No growth means that we can continue as we have been with treatment and life. Yes, good news!

Jennifer is here to go to appointments and to keep me on track. But she is not here right now. I’m doing the chemo with a pair of earplugs in, striving for a little quiet to allow me to gather my thoughts and write to you.

I have asked for earplugs often enough that someone finally ordered some for the supplies here. And I usually have a pair in my pack but not today. But that’s not the point really. Asking for the earplugs today started a conversation with my nurse Matt about the day at the hospital that the power went out. And the conversation sort of spread down to the nurse’s station.

Yes, people remembered it for sure. It was memorable in that it turned the usual hustle and bustle of the area into a quiet restful place. The nurses were about their work in a space that seemed to have gone back in time. The emergency lighting was on which was about 10% of the normal amount. The chemo machines were not capable of making any of their normal vocabulary of warning signals. The nurse’s computers were limited to the immediate tasks and the nurses were free to actually spend time with the patients. It was such a wonderful, restive and memorable time.

We always talk about Our Dana as being the Secretary of Ambience. The hospital could here paid her tens of thousands of dollars to come up with a scheme like that. So Matt and I are going to work on this in our spare time, make some recommendations to the board.

So yea, help us celebrate what is. I am going to take a little nap here in the comfy chair. The best to you, love, Felipe.

“It is sad to live in a country so divided, when each of its people woke up under the same sunshine that I did.” Josh, my friend, the fisherman, the fisherman poet.

Josh ~ you expressing that so elegantly points to the care inside you and the care that you are putting out for us to see and to ponder and hopefully put to use.

Josh wrote that on a FaceBook post a couple of days ago. I was so taken to see it there amoung so much FB craziness, my own included. It was there so short and sweet like a perfect heart rock on the perfect randomness of the beach. Thank you Josh.

If I could, I would like to comment on your concern. One of the roles that I see older folks, as in me, playing is the guy that says don’t panic we have been here before. And not only before once or twice but many times. I have seen it with my own eyes and I need to say that it will be OK, steady on your course and don’t get disturbed or disrupted by the political weather at the moment.

We are early in the election process when the craziest of ideas of both parties are talked about with straight faces and put out to see what we think. As monthes go by both parties inevitably move towards the center of the political spectrum to capture those voters in the center that they both need if they are to win. So, all the rancor that is apparent right now is a result of this dynamic. And so at a certain point both parties will be trying to buy our affections with chocolates and flowers.

In other words the water is choppy right now. But we have been having orderly elections for over two hundred years now and I don’t see any reason for this one to be any different. My own take is that it would be helpful if we treated those who think differently than ourselves, when these political contests get everything all heated up, as opponents and not enemies. Save the enemy thing for when we really need it which is fortunately not very often.

I really love it to hang out with the fishermen. They are akin to ranchers, farmers and loggers who are close to the natural resources, the natural world. close to dirt, sweat and real life concerns. So much of our thinking these days seems to come from the big city of CEO’s, lawyers, Indian chiefs and entertainment personalities.

Josh, study up on Harry Truman, the president when I was learning to crawl. He was a no BS guy, just Harry, refreshing.

Have to go, love you all of both parties, Felipe.