This post is an exception to the rule. We had TGIF and now we have TGIS, Thank God It’s Saturday. It just so happens that two of my three Aussie Angels have shown up with material and you need to have it sooner than later. So, that is what this is about today.

Angela was with us for a few days before Leon in August in the heat and dust of the Camino Frances. Her post today is very soulful and I thank her immensely for coming forward and giving us this glimpse of her inner Camino. We all saw her outer Camino which was marked with the pain of tendinitis, which is a biggie. I didn’t have this challenge and it puts people “out of the race”. But Angela found her inner Rambo and, well she can tell you herself:

Hi Phil,

hope you are well mr!! and i would ask you if youre feeling better but i already know you are 🙂

Ok so my thoughts..Im sorry.. there is no way it can be 500 or less ahahah :

I have always told myself that I was not a good writer. When you asked me to write a few words, I slightly panicked haha thinking I had to come up with something amazing, something funny and great and this is not me. But that thought is long gone 🙂 This has always been me. Always doubting myself. Always thinking that I wasn’t enough. But the camino has definitely help change me. And I realise now that I am enough!

I can honestly say that I struggled after the camino finished. I missed the walking. The pain. The friends/family I met and made. I missed life on the camino. I really did learn a lot about myself from this crazy walk. Coming back to my life in Sydney you could probably say I was depressed. 6 months of amazing travels, an incredible experience on the camino.. now life.

It took me a good 2 months or so till I was all good again. After the feeling sorry for myself stage, I was telling myself (talking to myself like a crazy person) that it was enough. The feeling sorry for myself stage is done. I was disappointed in myself because it was as though everything I learnt about myself on the camino, everything I had gained on the camino, had gone. But I can strongly say it hasn’t. Felipe.. I am back 🙂 and my thirst for life is GINORMOUS! It took some time.. but I am definitely back. I have started to bring back into my life the way I was on the camino.. my strength.. knowing that I struggled, walking crazy amounts of km’s everyday and I accomplished it. If I can do that, I can do anything. I have pushed aside my negativity, my doubts and I have adopted a more positive way of thinking. The laws of attraction. Thinking positive and attracting positive. Which has been very foreign to me for most my life. And you know what.. 2015 has been bloody brilliant so far and I truly believe this is going to be a great year.

I finally started to look for a job 2-3 weeks ago and I went to the interviews with a different attitude to usual. I would have conversations with my father in my head before my interviews, as well as talking to God and I would tell myself that I have got this. I could feel that my dad was with me the whole time, I felt strangely calm. And the first 2 interviews went so well and even if I didn’t get the jobs, I was actually happy that it was a good experience for me. I wasn’t hard on myself. I was just appreciative of the experience and what I was getting out of practicing interviews, and it just meant that something else was waiting for me. 3 interviews later, I now have a job who is paying me what I am worth. And believe me, I settled for a lot less for almost 10 years. I walked in not settling for anything less than what I felt I deserved. I can honestly say Felipe, for the first time, I love my life. I am so thankful for the camino and what it has taught me. I am so grateful for all the connections I have in my life. I feel so blessed.

I’m nervous and excited with life. But for once, I am looking forward and am totally ready for whatever is coming my way.

MUCH LOVE TO YOU FELIPE! Sending you a trillion massive bear hugs!

Ange