It was at the Veranda that Cris was quoting David Whyte I think saying, “Your plans are too small for you to live.” If that’s not exactly it, it’s close. Isn’t that a great quote, a great thought. In other words we don’t think big enough and our plans can get in the way.
Then My Rebecca said on the film, “I never expected any thing like this!” She was speaking about how Cancer, Catholicism and the Camino changed our lives together.
Then I said in a blog post recently that a Cancer diagnosis steals one’s plans for the future. They seem to go on hold or disappear from your thinking. All of a sudden the future has changed or more accurately your vision of the future has changed.
Are these things fitting together in some way? Are we saying that an unexpected life change might be a good thing? It might clear away small ideas, small intentions and make room for something bigger and better.
Would a meeting with Dr Zucker be possible without Cancer? Would Phil have built a trail for an exercise program on his own without a diagnosis? Would Phil have run off with the Camino with his old sensibilities before the diagnosis? Would the meeting between Phil and Annie O’Neil happen on it’s own without the drama of the Cancer.
Seems like all one big conspiracy to me at the moment. Someone asked at the last QandA, “What if you had a choice to live our life without your Cancer. Would you choose to not have the disease?” The question absolutely stopped me in my tracks. What is that? Seems like that should be a easy call for a normal person.
big conspiracy loves, Felipé.
Thank you for those words an ideas.
I’m not sure I’m a normal person, and I don’t know if I have cancer, but I do try to honor and love upon those I find along life’s path.
Like our neighborhood here, the world is overflowing with caring and interesting people. But it seems that f#%r keeps our minds and hearts closed so we don’t see any more than their exteriors. I encourage everyone to gaze into the eyes of people you ‘run into,’ for behind them might be a lifelong friend.
yeah, I know I’m preaching to the choir here …
Ronaldo ~ thanks. Our conversation unearths things worth looking at closely. Karen is up this Friday, she sent her post in this morning. Alperfect, Felipé.
Dear boss,
Yes, those words are quite accurate; they are from a poem from David Whyte calles “What to remember when waking” and one of the lines is that: “What you can plan is too small for you to live”.
And I find these words very uplifting and very challenging too… We may have plans, and they may become real, but there is no way that they will be like what we thought… or our plans may never make real and cause a tremendous heartbreak, but what we may be living is a life that we never envisioned, something we never would have thought about. The later is what has happened to me… and like you, I weep from time to time for the plans that didn’t happened, but at the same time, I just bow with so much gratitude for the life that I was given instead. It is all so unexpected and unimaginable, that I don’t think a mind could have thought it… certainly we cannot “Pollyannanized” this and forget our heartbreak for sure… but it doesn’t either reduce the awe and wonder…!
Loves from Warsaw,
Cris
To Cris in Warsaw ~ that question at the QandA really threw me. Having Cancer just isn’t in anyone’s plans but it happens all the time. It certainly wasn’t in mine. But what to do when you get marooned on a deserted island you make due. We have to get better at our plan B’s and C’s. Felipé.x