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Calligraphy

I was off walking on the backyard Camino with Dayna today. We are just getting to know each other although we are close geographically, as in she is just around the corner. But we discovered that we have this mutual interest in calligraphy which I’m not sure that I have a handle on what it all means.

It is basically the art of handwriting but handwriting sounds so simple and art seems complicated. See? I don’t think that I could have said that better if I had tried. That just sort of typed itself. And there on to typing and keyboards and talking to each other as we are communicating right now.

I remember my Dad teaching me lettering and a love for communicating in that fashion. I don’t think that we knew the word calligraphy but we had the spirit. Then the excitment in fourth grade to learn cursive (longhand) with the Palmer method. This all sounds like ancient history. But it gets even better!

The elementary school that I went to in Buffalo, NY was in two old old buildings. The steps were are cupped, Caminolike, from billions of little feet. You have seen pics with the desks that were wrought iron and wood and screwed to the wooden floor in rows, each had a hole in the top for an ink well. The ink well was a little glass container that once had held the liquid ink and was used with a straight pen to write. The student would dip the nib of the pen in the ink and write a few words and dip again and continue. This is one step more modern then writing with a quill, a feather, gang.

And our teacher somehow got into an old storage area and found enough of the pen nibs and holders and blotters and wells to outfit they whole class and we used that stuff the whole year. Timemwise people were just in the transition between fountain pens and on to ball point pens then in the 1950’s. And here we were with this ancient stuff to learn to write cursive with. I was in heaven.

So now when I notice a person with a “nice hand” or in other words who takes joy in writing and communicating in that fashion I make sure to compliment them. I think that is what Dayna and I clicked on as we walked the Camino this AM, it was the joy we shared for that particular form of communication.

What does this have to do with the Camino anyway? Well, maybe we are talking about taking the time, when we can afford it, to communicate in an artful manner. To say to our audience that beside wanting you to get what I am saying, I value you. I am taking my time to be with you. I am “spending” my time with you. Isn’t that what we did on the Camino where we walked on our blistered feet ever so slowly across Spain.

I’m weeping, sorry, love you, Felipe.

p.s. – thank you Dayna.

More Skunk Cabbage

It's really up and doing it.
It’s really up and doing it.

Hopefully this will be the last blog on skunk cabbage for the spring, but you never know. It’s really in it’s prime now, so I thought that I would show you. These plants are about a foot high just so you get an idea of scale. I really wish I knew how many centimeters that is, for some of my friends.

Spring is here on Vashon Island and that is a good thing, as far as I can see. So, this would mean that spring is in some stage along the Camino in Spain and France. Snow melting in the mountains, temps warming up, rain becoming less frequent. Albergues opening up for the new season. Fun to think about. We have Caminoheads going to Spain shortly and maybe they could do some reportage. I will ask.

Well, here we are with today being another day in tha saga. What questions do we ask ourselves? Like, how can I do things to glory of God today? What is the most powerful way to spend this day? What about my fellow man? What about all the creatures around me? And don’t be overwhelmed. Make something happen. Thanks, Felipe.

Sacred Heart Radio And Sister Rose

Heart rocks on the windowsill.  Alperfect.
Heart rocks on the windowsill. Alperfect.
Yesterday I went to the mainland for treatment at Swedish Hospital but leaving the Island early gave me time for the side trip to Kirkland, WA. I got lost on some quirky little streets there but finally arrived at the studio of Sacred Heart Radio. These are the guys that granted me an interview back in Feburary and was aired here in the Northwest in early March.

The station was in fundraising mode and was doing a lot of talk trying to get listeners excited and contributing. Volunteers were taking calls and donations. Pretty fun and I chatted with the volunteers in the inbetween times.

At one point I got to be on the air for five minutes to Caminohead along for the listeners. I am turning into such a ham, pretty funny really. So, I thank the folks at Sacred Heart for their hospitality and friendliness.

OK, on to Sister Rose Pacatte, who is a Catholic Sister, big time film critic and friend of our beloved Annie. On Annie’s recent visit here she gave me a signed copy of Sister Rose’s book about Martin Sheen (The Way). How nice. I just checked into the Sister’s blog which is huge and awesome and something I need to explore. Just Google Sister Rose and good things happen.

Well, am walking here in half an hour. Don’t know if anyone will show up but either way it’s good. Katherine and Dayna are leaving for Spain on the first so they may be here. Yup, keep walking out there, radio frequency loves, Felipe.

Off To The Mainland

Here she is.
Here she is.

I am off in a few minutes to go to Swedish Hospital and get my portable chemo pump disconnected that has been my constant companion since Tuesday. I have nicknamed it or him Pancho, like the sidekick of the old TV cowboy show Cisco Kid from way back in the fifties. But before I get there I am going to take a little side trip (my sidekick is going on a side trip) to the Sacred Heart Radio Station. These are the folks that had me do the radio interview which you can listen to on Sound Cloud back a week or so ago on this blog.

So, I will be doing some extra driving this AM and I am checking with my guardian angel for her help in the extra morning traffic that I will have to navigate. At some point I realized, after having three hair raising close calls on the highway, that constant worrying about my cancer could be a moot point compared with this source of danger. I am using this in my mentoring with others, and that is that taking up the precious days that we have with worry is cheating ourselves of this unique time. I have heard it said that worry is a tool of the devil and maybe that says it.

So the message to you my fearless readers is that we all have precious few days, whether this has been made obvious or not, let’s not waste them with worry about things that are ou of our hands. Have faith that the universe is conspiring in our favor, we just need to realize it and play along. That’s my take.

I have to shower and go. So for now, it’s alperfect in the big picture. Oh, but one of my rememberances from the Camino that might be appros and that is in one of the many many churches that Kelly and I visited there was a uniquely different statue of our Mother Mary where she had this big huge smile. The smile was bigger than it needed to be in other words. A message? Did she know something that we have yet to learn? With love to you, Felipe.

A Rainy Wednesday Morning

The Assumption of  Mary (probably by) Don Silvestron dei  Gherarducci ca. 1365.
The Assumption of Mary (probably by) Don Silvestron dei Gherarducci ca. 1365.

Just kind of relaxing and taking a deep breath after the heavy parts of the filming are over. Annie got on her plane last evening. Todd, Jessica, My Rebecca and I went out for a dinner to kind of put a wrap on our ideas about the movie. I just wanted to make sure the general theme of the film was in line with how I see things. I want it to be an accurate portrayal of who I am. I want credit being given to all the sources of inspiration, technical help, love, clarity and prayer that is
the foundation of the story about this guy, who “is just a guy”. My only claim to fame is that I answered a call and the rest is the rest… I am surrounded by this incredible constellation of people that are helping me navigate through my present life. And of course God’s help and inspiration and God’s helper the seemingly ever present St. James are always available. So, that is what we talked about.

So, I am really excited that Jessica is going to help me put some improvements on this blog later today. You will see a slightly different look starting tomorrow. Also, we will be connected to other important sources of information and inspiration with live links. Yea, coming soon.

So, to you my fearless readers, stay tuned for you never ever know what tomorrow will bring. Surprises ahead! Have a GREAT day, love you, Felipe.

Playful

Todd and I are talking while we wait for Dr Gold’s appointment. So we are being playful as we enjoy each other. Jess and Annie are coming and going. We have escorts to get us from one place to another. Yea, we are here trying to capture the chemo reality without being too in the way with all the important stuff going on.

Just have a minute here in between things and I want to say something to all the folks that send in nice words to me from all over the world via FaceBook and other means. All good, alperfect you all.

I’m kind of exhausted after treatment and all the filming projects of the last few days. But I’ll bounce back, that’s what I do. Thanks to you and promise to stay in touch, love Felipe.

Greetings From Annie

Hey there Caminoheads! Annie here, writing for Felipe. Wow, what a beautiful time we have been having the last few days. A few years ago I considered myself the luckiest woman in the world when I met the man who would end up being my husband. Still do! Then I considered myself the luckiest woman in the world because I got to be part of Walking the Camino: Six Ways to Santiago, both as a co producer and as a pilgrim in that film. Still do! Now I consider myself he luckiest woman in the world because I am producing Phil’s Camino, starring you know who. That’s right, starring our very own Big Kahuna, or shall I say Big Caminohead, Phil! I’m sure you are all well aware of this project. If by any chance you don’t know about it, check it out at www.philscamino.com . Not only has it been a great pleasure hanging around with Phil but also working with the incredible crew we have assembled. The Team, we call each other. Jessica, Todd, and Rebecca, aka Rocky, are the team and although Rocky couldn’t be here this time she was with us in spirit. Also Dominick who has joined our crew on two occasions now, both times increasing not just the quality of work but somehow lifting the entire project with his quiet vibe of excellence. He is one of those people who just makes you want to be better because he is so good, do you know what I mean? The whole team is like that actually. I want to be the best producer I can be because of how good they are at what they do.
Phil asks me sometimes how things got so good, and I just nod and agree instead of answering him. Yeah, tell me about it! I, too, am surrounded by excellence, heartfelt dedication, love and commitment. How about you? Where is the excellence? If it is not immediately apparent maybe it is you! Let’s all just take that on for the day, shall we? Being the excellence everywhere we go. It can look very different from one situation to another, so don’t think this is a ‘set it and forget it’ kind of deal. Nope. You have to figure out what excellence is in each situation, then go for it! So here’s to excellence, whatever it may look like! It would be great to hear from you and hear all about your excellence or the excellence of someone you admire. Buen Camino my friends!

Happy Dance

Jess, Dom, Todd and Annie filming at the ranch.
Jess, Dom, Todd and Annie filming at the ranch.

We are working and partying here at the ranch. Filming is going on for the documentary. The list of things to accomplish is getting shorter. Annie, Jessica and Todd are here. Dom is here doing sound. Various luminaries are showing up to be in the mix.

I am just so happy to be a part of this same mix, this happy dance. Out of all this effort will come a film that will help change people’s minds about what they can and can’t do with cancer. We are focused on seeing this proceed through to it’s conclusion. Thanks to the many people that have helped, prayed, encouraged and guided us. Dancing on, love, Felipe.

You Could Blog

Annie, Todd, and Jessica.
Annie, Todd, and Jessica.

That’s what Annie just said to me, “You could blog.” I have a few minutes after my bible class and Annie and the film crew are doing interviews with some of the members/ my buddies. So, with some minutes to have a blog moment with you.

I’m just listening to my buddy Steve doing an interview and talking about the Camino on Vashon. And Steve walked with me on the very first lap when it opened in December 2014. I was just looking at the logbook yesterday.

Today and over the next few days we will be capturing walking on the backyard Camino. Filming is interesting to me because it involves trying to get as much as possible and without regard to what we are thinking is important. The important magical moment that makes the difference, that really says something is hard to anticipate. Things happen and hopefully it gets captured.

Then on Tuesday we will be over to Seattle to be at Swedish Cancer Institute to capture what my treatment day looks like. It will be interesting being in the busy environs of the hospital and filming. Will tell you more later on that.

So, I will leave you here today. I am involved with what goes on with the filming schedule and things are busy and I usually don’t know what is happening next so, up up and away. I’m glad you all came, love, Felipe.

Cherry TGIF #10

Cherry in Spain last summer.
Cherry in Spain last summer.

(And now the always insightful Australian pilgrim Cherry. She always seems to come through when I need her. Thank you Cherry for being with us so consistently. This piece/peace speaks to me).

Here you go Phil, love you x plenty of funny spelling in this one for you guys again. Would you prefer I wrote with US spelling?

This morning I watched a fascinating TED video about a Social Scientist Academic, Dr Brown, who was talking about her research into human connections. About half way through said research, Dr Brown experienced what she referred to as a ‘breakdown’, and promptly went off to see a therapist. But the therapist didn’t refer to her situation as a ‘breakdown’, instead named it a ‘spiritual awakening’.

It made me reflect on my current situation and my perspective. I thought, many people would see my current predicament as a breakdown. After all, I have no job, I have no home of my own and I have no partner. I realised that I hadn’t looked at my life this way. I remember someone once saying to me that there are 3 important pillars of a stable life; a job, a home and a loving partner. And I have often repeated this to others and believed it myself.

I have none of these things, yet I feel the happiest I have ever felt in my life. I am free to spend my days however I want. I guess I am blessed to have some savings still so I don’t have to rush out and find any old job so there is that going in my favour. But I’m lacking what I always believed the fundamental pillars of life to be and yet I am content with that.

I can practice yoga and meditation every day. I can go to the beach and swim in the ocean. I can spend the whole day reading a book or writing one. I can even spend the afternoon having philosophical and spiritual debates with my semi-retired mum. And I have learnt that these are the best of the best for me, my true pillars of life. They are the things I love doing for myself and that I deserve to do these things. And although some may view my current situation as a breakdown, I know that this is all part of my spiritual awakening.

If you would like to watch the TED video I was referring to you can view it here: http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability?language=en